Headscape

 

on balancing my headscape

Glitter.jpg

glitter—


ideas bouncing
like sunshine on snowflakes
pop rocks and fireflies in caves
i know me
(with glitter)
with camera clicks
with doodles
with screens
of cinema
of text-cursors
of vectors
of make-believe galaxies
of pastel landscapes
with apple trees


GLITTER


(louder, this time, for effect)
i began reflecting
on my … self ...
and found
ladybugs scuttering over
white rose petals
and oceans seated
beneath bright rays
i found parts of me
that i love


Scribbles.jpg

scribble—


that was ridiculous
who am i? if i ask myself
again, i might throw up
i scribble, even scratch,
to bury some parts
i’m tired of thinking
of hiding
of trying

so i will stop showing and i will stop searching my headscape / but i guess i’m doing just that... — this revelation might be enough

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scrawl—

furiously writing in
a notebook is a soothing
activity (not always)
when my hands cramp up
from overuse
or

overextension
or
whatever
this is how i cope
and how i suffer
with the paradoxes
the splits, the cuts, the stifled and bare,
i write, i guess, but
my head wildly scrawls
to find glitter or to just scribble
again

one day it scribbled then scrawled then slowed into cursive—

“One day, I’ll find so much glitter, there won’t be room
to scribble or scrawl anymore.”

 

Author/Designer: Olivia Jimenez

Photographer: Michael Castaño